Changes

changes in my life have been so many in this past year. Feb 15th 2008 the biggest change happened to me. I found my self pregnant with my 4th baby. Did not know where I was going and what I was going to do. I was alone. Then I met my most wonderful husband. We were together for a week and married. We knew that we wanted to be together. He has raised my son as his own. He didnt care that his father was a dirt bag and HE was not to see that baby anymore. He never saw him in the first place.
In late October we had been married for a bit and Ricks drinking was out of hand. Doing things that was not in his nature. I went up stairs to check on him because he was not acting like him self. I knew when I found the door locked and I could not get it open. Funny thing about a woman is when she knows something wrong she is going to get in to that room. I did and I found my husband passed out and he had over dosed on drugs. I did not think that my life was going to continue anymore, how was I to go on with out him. I found the strength. He is in Rehab now and should be home sometime soon. We are waiting for Doctors to tell us when they think he is well enough to come home. Mixing medication and trying to get him to sleep is so hard right now. We do not want to put him on anything he can become deponent on. Being an alcoholic he is at a higher risk then anyone of us who is not an alcoholic. Sense that all went down I moved out of a small pain in the butt town and I moved to a nicer town named bennington. Where rick and I can start over and start a better life for are self. I moved by my self. I guess being a woman who is determined will get that job done for her husband. The really hard part about all of this is I have no family that was there for me. I did this with support of my sister and my husband calling me and telling me not to forget this or that. He has kept me going and I keep him going. We make each other. I love Richard Lee James.